Y Tuesday, September 26, 2006Y

10:07 PM

Sowie for not updating my blog for so long..
Hais..No time..Exam Around the corners..
So busy with studies and Fasting..
Haish...

May i asked sumthing..??
Do uu Love ur dad??
Lyk duh??!
Stupid question im asking u all.

But...
I HATE MY DAD..
i dont know why..???
Maybe bcause he left me alone with my mom..
i jus Fed-Up with my life..
I have a Step Father but....
He treat me as stranger hu live in that house..
Am i a Stranger???
I hope not ...

Im angry at my father..
but I lOve my father.
Since young,I never get close with my dad..
I mean...Uu know right??
He everytime in and out of Prison..
So there's no time for me with him..

When i was Primary 3..
My mom asked for a divorce..
On that time i dont know what happening..
So i jus Kept quite what my mom do..

I met a guy hu is very good to me..
I treat him as my father..
Bcause he treat me lyk his own Daughter..
and he is "My step-Father"

After the marriage, we shift to CCK..
When i was Primary 5 i think???
Yar..! Primary 5..
He still's treat me as his own Daughter..
So he bought his childrens to live with us..
I agreed with that cause that time i hav no friends at home..

I mean my brother and sister is still young..
can talk much with them..They dont understands..
what i am talking about...

When i promoted to Secondary life..
His behaviour is totally change..
I dont know what had happened to him..

Nowadays,he treat me lyk a stranger at home..
What i mean is...

Whenever i want to eat.. he will usually scold me..
I feel that im not his Daughter animore.
Whenever i wanted to eat a bit more...
He will say "Jangan Makan Byk2....Tglkn orang Blakang!"..
he always says that.. but if his daughter do that..
he didnt opened her stupid mouth..
Im getting sick of him..
Now..~

i live in this werld with No FATHERS..!
Urgh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel lyk Killing myself..
I wan a Responsible Father hu can take care of my mom and me..!

YaSha-Lollita

Y Thursday, September 21, 2006Y

10:17 PM

Today going to Mid-Autumm with him..

After IT Training have to wait for him..

Hahahaks.. Whu else i should go home with??

Hehehhe.. Maybe we meet a bit Late..

Haiyaa..

It's okae .. Atleast can meet him..

Than meet under Sharyfah's House...

at 0600pm..

With Syikin,Yasmin,Yasin,Sharyfah..

me and Him...

Today i felt bored in School..

Hias.. nothing to do in IT Training..

so update my blog..

Hehehhe..

My frends get to know whu i stead with..

Haiyaa..

Soon or later whole school will know..

SHIT..!

TODAY MID - AUTUMM GOING

TO BE FUN..!

ADIOUS AMIGOS

12:21 AM

This heart is bleeding desperation

And these dreams, they're still worth fighting for

Cause in my eyes, this is the only thing that I have

And I will never let this go.

This love is something that will never die

And this blood still running through our veins

But your words you know never came from the fucking heart

And I will be there to watch you fall apart.

With the blood of the main frame

And with the heart of the system

Still you throw it all the way

And everything starts with you.

And now this time the words will be straight from the heart

You can’t fake the life that was never there

And this is reason, enough to stand up

And make this life be more to you

Every action it sparks reaction

And every movement it starts with you

And every action it sparks reaction

And every movement it starts now

With you

It starts with you

With you

With the blood

Everything,

it all starts right now

With you

It starts with you

12:14 AM

Did you really think that you would keep a secret from me?

When I know you like the back of my hand, come on now

I can tell when you're on the low tryna hide somethingTryna hide something,

You can't hide nothingI been watching you for a minute,

I already knowWhatchu doing,

you can't hide it from me, come on now

I can tell when you're on the low tryna hide somethingTryna hide something,

You can't hide nothing

Ima call you out,

Ima call you out

Oh oh

Ima call you out,

Ima call you out

Oh oh

Ima call you out,

Ima call you out

Oh oh

Ima call you out,

Ima call you out

Oh oh

Im the illest chick you ever met, You know thats a fact

I'll cut you off in a minute,

Boy if you make me

You'll never catch me asleep,

I'm awake babyI'm awake baby,

You can't front on me

You can save all your tired lies for someone who cares

I be seeing right through em,

No time to waste nowYou will never catch me asleep,

I'm awake homie

I'm awake homie,

You can't front on me

Ima stay down

Ima ice grill

You don't know by now?

You should get familiar

You got a hundred stories,

You be fake thuggin'

If you think I'm believin you?

You must be buggin

'I'm like a fortune teller

I can see em comin

'If he's runnin games,

Ima keep em runnin

The day you play me

That'll be the day you're gone

You can front nowBut later on...

Y Wednesday, September 20, 2006Y

11:35 PM

10:58 PM

Today wake up at 0530 am.

Yesterday night i have a fever..

Haiyaa..Hate to eat medicine.

Wat else..im tat kind of girl.

Reached school with Dinah,

saw Fashiha,Ain,Shahirah and

Syahfiqah.Reached school around 0710.

I said Bubye to Dinah.Than go

To the canteen..Saw him.

I felt Happy after seeing his face.

He jus cant stop smiling if saw my

face..He look cute..

Today Morning asssembly SUX!

There's a groming check.Me and

Syikin get caught bcause of Long

FingerNails.Haiyaa..! Need to cut my nails..

So long keep than mus cut.I sat down and cut my

fingernails while looking at his face.Who else should i smile

with if not him.?? Hahahaks..

First Period,Maths..

Okae i can do all Mr Cheng give Question.

It's look easy for me.

Hope End year Exam easy as like that..

Need to study hard this year..

My mission to get Top 3..

Or else i will not get anything from my mom..

Second period,

Mother Tougue.

Ouh Gosh..!

Getting sick of Mr Zainal nagging.

Like old grandfather..

He told asked that Faizal naughty in class la..

Not interested la Mr Zainal..!

Mother Tougue 2 period..!

Urgh..! We have End Year Exam Listening

Comprehension..,I slept while i do my test.

SLEEPY LOL..!

0945

RING..!

Recess..

Go down to canteen Brought

Tuna SandWich and SEASONS ice Apple Tea.

What else should i drink than SEASON..??

Saw him talked with Yasin..

He Waved hand to me..

Hahahahks.. So cute..

After brought my food go Foyer

to collect ticket for Mid-Autumm..

Cant wait for Tomorrow..

First Need to Meet him.

Than meet my friends under sharyfah's Blok...

Cant wait to go out with Him..

Does he look more Handsome than before??

Hahahaks..

1055 Ring..!

The bell have rang and for us

to assemble at Parade Square.

Seat there for few minutes..So hot..

I cannot stand the sun...

Cannot do anything..

Walked passed his class..

Saw him..

Doing his werk..

So baek..

English lesson Started..

mr.Tay asked us to do Yesterday werk...

Ring..!

The bell have goes..

PDP lesson..

I hate PDP..!

Now i having IT TRAINING..!

I keep remember about him

every minute,hour,where..

Cant wait to meet him..

Love uu..

Heart uu..

Take care Dear..!

Adious..

Dinah Take care..

Care about uu and amirul..

Y Tuesday, September 19, 2006Y

10:47 PM

Early in morning, i gave him Chocolate...

He keep smiling at me..

My heart melt whenever i saw him..

He was so understanding than from those

guys i get to know the last time..

I hope he Love like how i Love him..

Today i will meet him again

like yesterday..I hope i didnt make uu

bored today like yesterday..

I will always heart uu..

Please dont Leave me..

Today in class kept

thinking bout Dinah and him..

Cant stop thinking bout them..

I and Qin Rong got First in class

on my Science Common Test..

I get 24 over 40..

Only that..I will never get happy

about my Science..Haish.. First in class but

not enough..Haish..I dont when i should get Top 3 in my class..

This End-Year of exem i tried my best to get etleast Top 3..

My mission is To passed my End Year Exam and Pass my

N LEVEL and join ITE Simei..

Haish..

Dont know what have just happened to her..?

She keep thinking about her boy..??

Im very sad about her..

But don worry i will always beside uu ,dek..!

hmm?? Now what ..Kae how about my school life,Today??

First lesson- P.E.. mY favourite..

I scored 4 goals.. WOW! Mr.Tay Proud of me.

He keep telling me to join National Girls Soccer.

I decided to Join when i studied at ITE..

Maybe...if nobody avoiding me..

Second Lesson- Science..

I get my Science Common Test.

Go through Common Test and 2004 End of year

exam sheet.Saw 2c walked passed my class to go Science Lab..

Saw Fashiha,I smile at her.Saw him.(Dinah's boy).

Bluek..! I dont what have happened to him..None

stop tuck out his Uniform..Tuck in la..Please.!

It's look awfull ..

Somemore uu stead with Perfect ...

Than uu tuck out ur shirt..Cant uu be

like Ahmad??? Haish.. Everytime i saw he,

he never missed to tuck in his uniform..

Haish....

Ring..! 0945am.

Lower sec Recess

2c walked passed my class again..

saw Fashiha, i smile at her again..

Saw him(Dinah's boy) AGAIN.!

ALWAYS TUCK OUT HIS UNIFORM..

GETTING SICK OF HIM..!

Haish..why dinah keep Hearts him??

Cannot control her life..

1015am..

RING.!!!!!

Recess..!

Im going off to recess....

Straight go Library..

Played comp..

Saw him... He smile at me..

So cute..

Cant stand it..

hehehks..

Kae...Update Later..

Adious Amigos..

Y Monday, September 18, 2006Y

5:25 PM

You've been waiting so long

I'm here to answer your call

I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all

I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you

I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do

They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true

They know you're the one I wanna give it to

I can see you want me too

Now, it's me and you

I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready

I know what to do, if only you would let me

As long as you're cool with it, I'll treat you right

Here is where you wanna be

I fall in Love with you..

18 September

My Love Day.I have stead with Him Today on 0524pm..Outside HOD room..

Urgh..! My hearts Felt when he said "I LOVE YOU"..

I promise i treat you well(I swear)

If you are reading this..

I telling you from bottom of my heart

That i Love you...

Thankie Darling..

YaSha

Y Thursday, September 14, 2006Y

10:06 PM

haloo there..

Im now having IT Training.Hahahaha..
Rainy arh..Lily angred at us bcause we disturb her.
Hais,she cannot take it to much arh..
Too bad...

Today im very happy although i never see his face today..
Science lesson is the best..Laughing with Sharyfah and Haziqah.
Love calling haziqah"KUTU"..hahahaks..
I hate when she pitch me..Ouch.! Very painful..

Dinah,Atifah and Rafidah send us to Techno Hub 1..
Hahahaks.. Told Yasin that Lily angry at us..He asked why??
Then i told him That one of the sec4 boy like her..I not dare to
type who's the name...Im scared..Hahahahks...

Hais..Lily,Lily..
What have happened..
Today i get 3 testimonials from Ili Nadrah.
Younger sister of Dinah..Lol..

Okae too there only..
Im tired everyday Update my blog..
Hahahaks..Im a crazy and lazy girl.

Kae..Bubye..

12:13 AM

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne
I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

Y Wednesday, September 13, 2006Y

11:30 PM

Fall Out Boy

Blink 182

Panic! at the Disco

11:01 PM

Today woke up as per usual nuthing change.Wait for dinah's bustop at 0640..
She's 6 minutes late.Hehehe..

Reached school talked to Lily,Rafidah and lily..Than disturb Ginny..Why she didnt ran faster yesterday..Hmmm..Talk about yesterday..It's very tiring.When home at 1030..argh..!
I hate take LRT to Al-Iman Mosque..I have a phobia with LRT bcause there's no rail at the side..urgh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate LRT..

First two period so boring..can sleep sey...at 0845am Dentist asked Chic to called me.
I came down with Sharyfah and saw Haqidah siting alone on the bench..She wanna asked something than i said what..?? she noe who i like?!?!?!

ouh my god... Mother tougue lesson more worse..DayDreaming all away..
Recess Saw Dinah and Fashiha.. Hahhaha..

Lily complain to me that Dinah didnt talked to Her and Rafidah.. I asked Dinah what happened,she said Rafidah told Lily dont talk to Dinah..What have happened..??

Argh..! Today school Boring.. If i noe im not going to school today..
To many conflicts..

PDP lesson About Sexuality Education..Oug my god.. Getting worse...
im waiting for PDP lesson ended.. Ring.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah..! Lesson finished.When to Library...Played comp..
Amad came..Very noisy..hahahaks..

0130.. IT TRAINING..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when inside Techo No Hub 1.. Surf Internet den suddenly came Sharyfah
scolding us for not doind my werk.. How's irratated me by her..

Hais..

0330 need to fall in at foyer ... Supporting the 'c' Boys Division playing Final for our school...
Kranji vs St.Patrick..

Wish you all good Luck..

Meet Dinah at MacDonald afetr match.. See You there Dek..